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*For a Sunrise or a sunset, you're manic and you're depressed will you ever be okay? [10 Jun 2004|02:02pm]
[ mood | pensive ]

Well, I'm finally done with finals. I guess it wasn't so bad anyway. I just have regents next friday and I'm finished<3

I can't believe this year is over already. It's so weird <3

I have an announcement as well..
Time for a new journal
ADD redlipstickclub

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*Now if ya wanna step, gotta play by the rules...Step to the left, Step to the right, Spin around... [08 Jun 2004|07:17pm]
[ mood | happy ]

hahaha This R. Kelly song is the funniest thing ever.

Anyway, today was pretty awesome I'll say. Came into school and took the math final which I totally totally failed hahaha. Oh well. And then aced the theology final so whatever it evened itself out haha.

So then after that I went and changed and called Mike around 12 and he came and picked me up from school :) Yaay. When he got there I felt like he was watching me "you're in jeans and walking towards the door" aahh hahaha "Turn around..see that pimp ass escalade?" "you're in that????" "no..I'm behind it." hahahah So yeah we got stuck in traffic going back to his house for like 1000 years. We made the best of it of course by dancing around to some music. There was a bunch of kids walking like single file down the road and they made it all the way to the intersection on foot faster then we did in a car hahah. He vowed never to pick me up again..but of course he will =P

So we headed back to his house and hungout with his cats aww they're cute<3 haha So then he gave me the grand tour haha I think Mike's room beats mine on the messiness scale..and that's hard to do. Still, it was pretty awesome. We hungout in there a while and pondered why he had 2 beds and he showed me some pictures haha they were interesting.

We ventured into the other side of the basement and went online and looked at some pics as well and then ended up watching TV for a while. The season pass was put to good use hahahaha. We watched some "room raiders" but it got boring. We found some random R. Kelly video which Mike made me watch and it turned out to be pretty fucking funny hahaha. Finally the part came where he wanted me to watch..
"Step to the left
Step to the right
Spin around and break it down tonight"
lmfao it was in our heads the rest of the afternoon. We kept singing it over and over hahaha. It sounds like the hokey pokey or something.

Hmm let's see what else did we do...we watched some preppy girl be 'made' into a skater..that was weird ahha. We had some good times haha. We watched some movie which turned out to be aright. And then we thought his mom came home turns out she left right after...hmpf hahaha oh well. And so yeah..around 4:30 we decided it was time for us to depart haha. We left and he drove me home. It was fun times <33


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*I'll be going through withdrawl of you from this one night that we've spent... [07 Jun 2004|12:09pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

Well well well,
Today was my last day of classes. I have finals tommorrow. Yeah finals. That sucks because I'm going to fail my math final pretty damn badly. And theology I haven't even started to study for yet. Whatever haha. Mike's coming and picking me up after my finals tommorrow so that makes me happy. I think we're going back to his house and sitting around so it'll be fun times.
Today was a funny day I suppose, I went into Mary's computer class and Ms. Davis let me stay in there and hangout hahaha. Me and Mary went on livejournal and she help me set up my new journal which I will use in a bit. That was good times of course hahah

Then I had all regular classes I cut A period today with Danielle. That was pretty rad. We said we had to go to guidence lmfao. That was awesome. We had free with Vinn and such. "The baby is kicking!" lmfao. When I have 6 children or sextuplets, Vinn is going to be godfather to all of them <3 hahahhaha Sophie, Junior and Senior. lmfao we are so weird.

Then I had H free, last H free with Mary Lex and Christie<3 I love them too much. We discussed some cool movie Mary saw. She always sees the best movies, they're so crazy! So yeah and then at the end of the day I had to clean my locker and take all my pictures down. It was a sad time haha. Me and Mary switched locks for next year. We are cute <3 haha I love Mary<3

I think I'm going to Boys Night Out and Saves the Day with Mary Caroline and Meghan and such. I think me and Mary are going into the city with her sister? Who knows but it's gonna be a fun time!! <333

Hmm it's survey time...just because

The moonlight, won't hide.Collapse )

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who? [06 Jun 2004|06:32pm]
sweetness27's LJ stalker is mynameskevin!
mynameskevin is stalking you because they think you are the one who made anonymous abusive LJ comments. They are also mentally deranged!

LiveJournal Username:

LJ Stalker Finder

Oh Kevin is my stalker!! hahahahha <333 My My wasn't I just his stalker a few months ago??? hahhaa <3

Oh and just for the record

I am not jailbait. <3 lmfao
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*First time, second time, let's stop this clock from starting... [06 Jun 2004|04:45pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

Hmm I feel so icky today. I don't feel good at allllll. Oh well. Anyway yesterday turned out to be a good night.

I woke up around 11 and talked to Warren and we decided to go to Anterrabae around 2 so I went down there a little early because I was bored and I just hung around bored just looking around. I ended up standing next to Dan and we noticed each other and started talking. That was really good he ended up saving me from bordem. We stood outside a while and I waited for warren. He got there around 215 and we went in and stuff. That was all I saw of him, he went and hungout with his friends so me and Dan hungout. I saw Alex there! That was pretty cool so I got to give him a hug haha. We watched Nora and Anterrabae. Good stuff it was cool and then left for a while. I ended up meeting one of my myspace friends and not even knowing it until he IMed me later and told me I was talking to him haha. We were talking about Catholic school for a while and then me and Dan decided to wander Main Street and see what was up. We found Chocolate by Hanni and wondered what gender Hanni was that was funny haha. Then later Lau came and picked me up and we went back to her house.

I saw Rusty oooh I love Rusty<3 hahaha We went to see Kevin James! Oh mannnn we were sitting near the weirdest people! The guy behind us was saying how he knew Kevin James or something and then the two people in front of us were just ridiculous. They were like old and kissing and shit. TOO much PDA especially for old people. YUCK. The guy put his arm around her and like stretched it out right in front of me and Lau so we coughed on it lmfao. Oh man. But Kevin James was sooo funny. At the end he was getting ready to do the wedge walk! lmfao Me Lau and Ange were so excited we were like holding hands! LOLOL When he did it we like flew out of our seats laughing lmfao. Oh man that was too awesome! hahaha

So we went to the dinner after and had some stuff to eat and then Lau drove me home so that was good stuff. <3

Aright yeah that was fun. Then today whatever I woke up late and stuff and my parents dragged me to church of course and when I got there I saw knee! hahaha We were like slapping 5 during communion oh man lmfao. Good stuff good stuff. Hmm I don't know if Mike is gonna pick me up from school now. Oh wells. I hope we still hangout I think we will. He said we will anyway. Age is dumb and that is all. haha <3


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*Bye Bye Beautiful..Don't bother to write [05 Jun 2004|12:47am]
[ mood | mischievous ]

Well well well I definately haven't updated in a while! My weeks has had it's ups and downs but tonight was definately an up :)

Anyway the weeks been good, today I had my usual H free with my dolls Mary Lex and Christie, I'm gonna miss H free I like it hahaa. We just have the best talks ever. And Mary should like Matt because he likes penguins and was emo. I mean that is just too awesomely cute. hahah oh well. Anyway so yeah we all had our little muffins and chatted hahah. I love those girls way way too much it's ridiculous.

So wednesday Lau picked me up from school with Antknee :) It was good times we got wendys and chillaxed and it was fun :) Thanks again snoodle<333

We had our last gym yesterday, it consisted of me and mary kicking crab soccer ass dispite our team losing hahaha. Then we ran around the locker room screaming oh we're insane.

I had C free with Jaki today that made me happy I love herrrrrrr <3

I'm so random today!
So anyway when I got home today I had no idea what I was doing tonight figuring it was going to be nothing. Then Mike asked me to come hangout with him and his friends in the village and I wanted to go but I couldn't get a ride there so I figured I was gonna end up doing nothing.

So then Mike IMed me (different Mike) haha and we were talking and I mentioned how noone was home and I had no friends and we decided to go see shrek 2 so we could have friends hahaha. So we met at the movies he thought it was strange because he wanted to pick me up but it's just easier if we met there haha. So I got there around 8:45 and I saw Tori and Ali there! So they talked to me a while and then Mike got there around 9 and called and said he was outside so they came with me to find him :) "IM SO GOOD AT WHERES WALDO SO I CAN DO THIS!!" hahahah Ali is so funny <3

Anyway so Mike and me went into the movies and it was insanity ahaha. Mike broke the little line thingie lmao. He laughed at me for not being able to fix it and then couldn't fix it himself! hahah oh dear dear me so then we finally went into Shrek 2 and oh man some of those coming attractions confused the shit out of us. hahaha Mike was like flipping out because he didn't understand it.

So the movie was just adorable and though Mike laughs too loud at times it was good times hahaha. The movie seemed short but adorable and yeah I liked it :) So then we walked out to his car and it was like 10:45 but I didn't feel like going home yet. We were trying to figure out where to go but instead he just ended up sitting in his car talking for oh I don't know...2 hours and 45 minutes? hahaha We're so silly. Mike listens to crazy music I've never listened to before but he had "take me out" on one of his burnt cds and I got all excited. Then he put on some song that was probably the funniest fucking song ever. It was all 70's groovy shit and the guys like "come on girl I'm so intooo youuuu and now all i wanna do is........" and I'm expecting it to be like "kiss you nowww" wasnt that. hahahhahah. We laughed so hard that was funny shit. He's from Louisiana, how cute is that. hahah that made me happy. And just for the record he's got fun eyes. ahahaha

So anyway yeah finally around 12:15 my mom called to see what I was up to and Mike figured it was probably time for me to be getting home so he drove me home and I got in around 12:30 and that was that. I don't understand my mom, sometimes she bitches when I get home at like 11:30 and then sometimes she doesn't even care..its weird hahaha oh well. It was an interesting drive home...hahahaha. And we realized I don't know my left from my right. Argh I should learn that hahaha.

Aaaaaaaand since I only have finals til 10:30 on wednesday he's gonna pick me up so I don't have to wait for the bus until 12:30! And we get to go back and hangout at his house. See we are just cool kids aren't we? Yeah I know I know.

KEVIN JAMES with Lau and Ange TOMMORROW!!! <33 I can't wait!


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*I sat there and stared at you, you didn't seem to mind, first comes heavy breathing... [01 Jun 2004|06:13pm]
Mike's home!
Yaay this makes me happy! <33333
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*Vindicated, I am selfish, I am wrong, I am right, I swear I'm right [31 May 2004|09:38pm]
[ mood | excited ]

Eeee I just got back from Lau's it was funnn :) Rusty is offically Lau's! I got to see Gabby today too! She is just way way way too cute<333

I don't feel like writing so I'll just post pictures of my new godchilddoggy.

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*This may never start, Tearing out my heart...Can I be your memory? [31 May 2004|11:55am]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

This summer is going to be amazing for various reasons:

-Lau is getting my Brother's dog Rusty since he can't take care of it anymore which automatically makes it like OUR dog! Oh my god we're gonna bring him everywhere!!

-We are going to se Kevin James in 5 days!!

-Me and Warren are going to Anterrabae Saturday...But I'll miss Mary :(

-I'll get to see Mike alot <333

-Fourth of July BBQ of course!

-July 24th....PAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARTY! Me and Lau's party will be INSANE

-Me and Lau also might go to Cooperstown together! Oh man<3

-Hoes sleepovers all the time! I can't wait! <333

-"Distance Between" shows with the hoes Lex Mary and Caroline to make fun of them! <3

-Hardcore shows with Mary to makeup for Anterrabae! <33

-Going to Montauk with Lau!!! Lau is going to drive out there so we have the car oh man we're gonna be at the beach all the fucking time!! <3333

Theres so much more but oh man!!!

Now I'm off to Lau's for a BBQ and so Lau can meet Rusty! I get to see Gabrielle today too!! ahhh <3333


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*Take me now, Fuck me Later [30 May 2004|09:12pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

Stolen from Lau, Mary, and Lex and whoever else did this shiz.

Bold what applies

01.I am perfectly content to sit by myself for hours listening to the same songs over and over again.
02. I'm a loud obnoxious son of a bitch.

03. I would love to do country line dancing.
04. I don't really care about...anything.
05. I can completely lose myself in a song.
06. Driving aimlessly while blasting music is therapeutic.
05. I love fall.
06. I hate turtleneck sweaters.
07. My friends mean the world to me.
08. I also hate when people TypE LyKe D1s.
09. I only get 3-4 hours of sleep a night sometimes.

10. I believe that even if they work, long distance relationships still suck.
11. Fuck computers
12. I don't like people
13. I like shopping for underwear.
14. I don't like studying.
15. After high school I'm going to Law school.

16. Sometimes I feel like passing out in the middle of the floor for no reason.
17. I want to go to Europe.
18. I have a lot to learn.
19. I'm vegetarian.
20. I sometimes like to watch the rain and think.
21. I like pop music.
How can I deny it, it's my roots.
22. Johnny Depp is beautiful.
23. Groups of the same kind of people make me sick.
24. I can type rather fast.
25. I wish I could sleep better.
26. I wish love was like a movie.
27. I'm not a huge fan of the holidays.
28. Irish people make me sick after reading "Angela's Ashes".
29. I want to win the lottery one day.
30. I like the Starting Line.
31. I trust people way too easily.
32. I don't have a job.
33. I dont like a lot of people.

34. I say fuck to charities.
35. I know a lot of people, but only have a few close friends.
36. I'm easy to get along with I think.
37. I'm a very aggressive person.
38. I like having "beauty nights" with my friends.

39. I need to find something I'm talented in and stick to it.
40. I'm very insecure, even though I don't show it.
41. I really enjoy thoughtful gifts, even if they cost nothing.
42. I never want to live in Australia.
43. I'm too agressive.
44. I love flavored lipgloss.
45. Sometimes words can actually hurt me more than sticks and stones.

46. The movie Honey makes me sick.
47. I like holding hands more than anything.
48. I have no life.
49. Sometimes, I like spending time alone.
50. I'm not a big fan of relationships.
51. It needs to be quiet and dark for me to fall asleep.
52. I miss being kissed.
53. I love to find money in my coat pockets.

54. In the winter I never want to leave my house.
55. I am good with directions
56. I'm pretty good with forgetting about things.
57. I like to read childrens stories.
58. I dye/cut my hair way too much.
59. Emotional neediness scares the crap out of me.
60. Hearing people say they miss me, when I thought they didn't care, makes me smile.

61. I sometimes wish I was black.
62. One of my favorite movies is Life as a House.
63. I'm very loud.
64. I feel like something's missing, even though I'm pretty content with my life right now.

65. My hair has a mind of it's own, and that mind is a paranoid schizophrenic.
66. I think meat is gross!
67. For the most part I don't care what anyone thinks of me.
68. I don't like having a boyfriend/girlfriend.
69. The song Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls is one of my favorite songs. lmfao oh man<3
70. I've never (really truly, like hard core) been in love.
71. I get really excited about girls/boys who play acoustic guitar.
72. I have never seen E.T.
73. I am drawn to intellect and humor.

74. I want my hair to be long but I can never grow it out.
75. I hate when people do things just to look important.
76. I love the game Twister.
77. I'm not old-fashioned.
78. I love waking up next to someone.

79. I'm not picky about anything.
80. I like acting like a kid.
81. I don't understand why everyone feels the need to be obsessed with star shaped things.
82. Music plays a big part in my life.
83. I hate the word "emo".
84. I want silky smooth skin.
85. I love Oprah.
86. Sometimes I think to myself: Wow. People are really fucking stupid.
87. Stupid people annoy me.
88. I may sound sarcastic but I really am serious.

89. I can forgive and forget.
90. I like being mean to people I don't know.
91. I can't stand ignorance.

92. Really tall people scare me.
93. I hate snow.
94. I love to laugh.
95. I don't listen to people that much.
96. I HATE Hello Kitty shit.
98. I think people throw the word love around too much.
99. I am outgoing.
100. I hate when people always have to sound smart like when they correct the teacher.

That was fun.


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*First comes heavy breathing, Staring at the ceiling, What will happen next? [30 May 2004|12:46am]
[ mood | content ]

I just got back from Laudy's yayy.
So yesterday was goood, in school it was the seniors last day so there was chaos and water balloons and such but they didn't pull a good senior prank, that sucked. hahaha Anyway at the end of the day I went to Jay's locker to say goodbye. I'm gonna miss him a lot. This sucks, but we'll hangout over the summer I hope so it'll be okay. <3 In his words "I live like behind you we'll definately hangout" I wish he lived behind me hahaha <33

Anyway later on I came back home. I miss Mike. And he JUST left for Maryland yesterday. hahaha I'm a fuck. So I'll shut up hahah.

So Lau came around 8ish and picked me upppp. After taking a fucking long time deciding what kind of food we wanted, we settled on Taco Bell haha. So I got a million tacos like usual and we came back home to eat. We sat there and probably had one of the funniest conversations of my life

Lau: I think I had a dream about a penis
Janine: Was it a running penis?
Lau: No no well maybe I saw it on tv or something
::pause, Lau and Janine take drinks...and then look at each other::
::Lau spits out soda and Janine squirts it out of her nose::
Janine: What kind of tv are you watching!?!?!?

Oh my god that was fucking amazing as anything! Anyway so then we kept eating after that ordeal "Maybe he's gay, no no, even gay guys want some!" hahahah oh man Lau cracks me into pieces.

So then we decided to go out and see what was going on so we stopped at the carnival behind Tri County to see what was going on there but it looked dumb so we left and then around 11 we went to the movies and saw "raising helen" it was adorable. First we watched the end of mean girls though ahaha and then went to raising helen there was like soo many previews and then some weird cat film lmao. Me and Lau got a little hyper towards the end we were double timing and like punching each other lmao It was a cute movie though.

We got out around 1:30am and headed home and stayed up til 4am lmao I don't even know what we were doing basically just sitting around hanging out and talking ahha Laudy is the best. I stole all her pillows, I don't even know how if she was in the bed and I was on the floor lmfao but it was funny <3

So then Lau had to drag me out of bed for no reason lmao we got ready "I need some bras" "boulder holders?" lmfaooo and then we picked up Antknee around 1:30 from work and headed over to home depot to get paint for Lau's room. I think I've been there more times in like 3 weeks with Lau then I have in my entire life, or it feels like it anyway lmfao. She got a grey called porporse? porcupine? I don't remember lmfao but it was something like that. Antknee stole my front seat in the car so I was bitchy and Lau made fun of my shoes lmao. I still love her though.

So then we went and picked up Mike and drove back to Ants and he got us water hahaha but Mike didn't really wanna stay so he left he didn't feel good <3 Anyway so then Ant drove over to some field to wear like Tom and all of them play wiffleball hahaha it was so weird, we definately saw them so then we left and got donuts because I had a craving for them and then went back hahaha and Anthony was like you should get out and say hello hahahah So I did!! I walked overr and saw them then I just left and as I was coming back to the car I was like "hey tom remember me!? asshole" hahaha and then I proceeded to scream "fuck you" out the window. So mature I know, it was so much fun though. Lau says I have balls of steel for doing it. I really do have closure now, I'm proud of myself lmao.

So after that we left and drove a little more and went near Jessicas and visited her! Oh man I love that girl so fucking much. I missed her!! We gave each other hugs and we are really gonna hangout soon. She is the best. I really really love her. <3

Then we went and picked up Antknee's friend aaron before heading back to his house and then me and Lau went home to find my parents there. It was weird lmao. We didn't even know they were over hahaha. So then we went out again and got MORE food, all I did today was eat junk. Me and Lau discussed how I really should be 300 pounds.
"You eat junk and sit online...that it!"
lmao its so true! I had today:
-Ice Cream
yet I'm not even tipping 100lbs it's ridiculous I worry about it lmao.

Anyway so then after that we just sat around and then Jaki Michelle and Greg came over for like 5 minutes me and Jaki talked haha I love her but then they left to play mini golf and me and Lau were too tired too hahaha.

But yeah then later I left but oh man it was awesome and we're having a BBQ on Monday yaaay hahaha I love Laudy so so much <333

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*I'd do anything, I'd give you my world, I'd wait forever to be your girl. [27 May 2004|11:53pm]
[ mood | pensive ]

If there is one person you can't stop thinking about,
post this same exact sentence in your journal

Janine has a crush?!!
WHO KNEW! =X one.
I just figured it out.

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*I say don't ya know? You say I don't know I say take me out [27 May 2004|05:11pm]
[ mood | mischievous ]

I am officially obsessed with Franz Ferdinand's song "Take me out"
I love the video so much<3

Had to get that out.
Anywayyyy Yesterday was good :) I came back to school finally and was greeted by my two hoes Lex and Mary<333 They gave me big hugs! :) Oh man so then I had religion with Mary so we got to talk since we didn't have C free but we got to talk :) and then I had C free with Jen That was adorable as always.

The highlight of the schoolday was definately H free with Mary Lex and Christie oh my gosh..Well, Lex's stupid ass ex boyfriend Sean has formed a band called "The Distance Between" and their on purevolume and everything and their fucking symbol is like A HANDIECAPPED SIGN what ASSHOLES lmfao THEY ARE SO FUCKING DUMBBB! Who does that!!! So, me being the bitch that I am, decide to go up to them and ask "SPACE BETWEEN WHAT!!" hahahah I also asked if they need anyone to push their wheelchairs. God I don't like them at all. "ALL THEY WILL HAVE IS TRAPT FANS!!!" hahahha I love my girls <3

Oh man last night me and Lau were going nuts online. She is seriously the funniest person I know! I don't know WHAT I would do without her! I can't wait for this weekend!! <333333

Lex wasn't in school today. That made me and Mary sad :( We missed our Lexi Baby<333

I'm doneee


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*You were always cute, but god damn you got hot.. [25 May 2004|09:03pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

EEEE I'm finally back here in New York! Florida was fucking awesome but it's nice to be homeee.
I got to see my amazing niece Gabrielle and that was awesome.
I have like a million pictures so instead of writing I'll show my trip through pictures...

+130 of beautiful Florida<3Collapse )

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*Woooo I'm in Florida! [24 May 2004|12:05pm]
[ mood | hot ]

Ah hello! I miss everyone dearly but I'm coming home tonight :)
I'm having an awesome time in Florida but it's about time for me to come home ahah. My niece is the best I'll miss her but she's coming up to New York next week<3

Aright it's survey time because I'm bored and Gabby is taking a nap...

stolen from Deni <3Collapse )

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*And I'm sorry I sound glad but why always be so sad? [18 May 2004|09:44pm]
[ mood | excited ]

So today was fucking awesome
Thea is back in school!!
I love her so much. She is one of the most amazing and strongest people ever. She hasn't been in school for months but she's back and I had Day 6 free with her today.
I love Day 6 frees. They're fucking awesome! There's Mary and Vin and Danielle and everyone <3

Awww I'm going away soon! I'll miss everyone especially my Laudy but I'll come back all tan and shtuff and I promise lots of pictures of my niece<3

I'm leaving tommorrow at 9am for Florida!
I'll be back Monday night!
Everyone send me lots of text messages since I can't talk on my cell down there!

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*Last night on the Mass Pike, thought I was losing you, Last night on the Mass Pike I fell in love.. [17 May 2004|09:28am]
[ mood | bitchy ]

Hmm So I'm sitting in computer reading my friends page apparently a lot of people updated and a lot has happened since I went to sleep last night. Geeeez I feel so left behind now what am I going to do when I go to Florida in 2 days? Oh jesus am I gonna miss livejournal. I am such a loser. Argh.

Aright so I just had a computer final it was so easy I can't believe it. So that's good I guess. Hmm I am going to go shopping today after school last minute shopping before Florida I guess. I don't even wanna go anymore but I'll get tan so whatever I guess.

Hopeless Nights is no longer a band. That makes me very very sad. :(. They were honestly the best local band I've heard in a while and I'm not just saying that. Well, I suppose all good things must come to an end. =\ Hopefully maybe new bands will come out of this I don't know. But I wish em all luck<3

I don't have free with Mary next period.
That makes me sad. :(

I'm seeing a lot of breakups lately. It's sad I guess. But be free for the summer kids that is my advice to you because in 67 days we are all going to party it up, yes all of you. I'm rambling I know. But another thing. Hmm I really hate it when people brag about their girlfriend/boyfriend and say "oh yeah their amazing and the best and the hottest person in the world" and then I see that person, and it's some ugly person whose most likely dumb/ditzy. Hmpf. Everyone just shut up I don't really care about you're love intrests. Thank you that is all.

Anyway..I don't wanna go away, I'm going to miss Laudy way way way too much I wish she was coming with me! I'm going to go through withdrawel like whoa. hahahah <3 I'll be back soon enough though and in 19 days we are going to see Kevin James and I cannot wait because it is going to be amazing. I feel summer it's almost within reach and I'm so excited.

I was listening to Mass Pike by the Getup Kids this morning and now it's stuck in my head. And it reminds me of Bill. Awww haha <3 Last night he told me he made out with Conor and I almost believe him for a second! I'm weird.

Aright. I'm done rambling because this is ridiculous already.


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*All the possibility and promise just weighs on me so heavily [16 May 2004|10:51am]
[ mood | happy ]

Oh man well, yesterday turned out really good :)
Let's see nowwwww..

I had nyssma and yeah it went pretty bad because my voice sucked but eh whatever I don't really give a fuck..its just nyssma hahaha.

So then later on after Lau got out of work she came and picked me up and we went over to my grandparent's house. They are so so adorable and it made me really happy to see them again because I really did miss them. My grandma kept giving us more food and we felt bad saying no! And we talked about the funniest things "bananas make you constipated!" "THONGS?!? nooo!!! 5 things!" lmfaoo oh man that was hilarious hahahh. Then my grandma whipped out the photoalbum "now who is this...?" lmao It was so much fun and seriously thank you so much for taking me Lau I love my Laudy<3333

So then after we left it was about 8:30 so we went back to Lau's because we both had to pee and then we decided to go over to Antknee's house woooop! So when we got there Mike Timms was there too! Yaaaay! And Giacomo? was there too hahahah. "Is that REALLY your name!!!" ahahaha I'm so mean! So we sat in the car a little while and then went to ant's back yard and sat there and looked at yearbooks ahahaha.

After that we decided to go in since everyone was getting eaten alive by buggys. So we headed into giacomo's house after we went up ant's stairs and Lau almost pushed me down and we got rejected from his house hahahah. We watched School of Rock but we definately talked during most of it hahaha. And that kid was eating lettuce? wtf lmfao

So then around 11:15 we decided to get going and we drove Mike home and then Ant decided he wanted to drive so me and Mike were stuck in the back really fucking scared lmfao. I don't think I've ever been that quiet in my life! But Ant did a good job driving! So that was good and we dropped Mike off and then Ant drove us back to his house and everyone switched seats hahaha and Laudy dropped me home haha <3 It was a really fun night...Summer is begining I totally feel it! :)

Arighty so thats it I must be gone now..


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*You were the last good thing about this part of town [15 May 2004|01:16pm]
[ mood | worried ]

Aright I am really really tired and I think I'm getting sick. This sucks. I'm going to florida soon too argh. Oh well.

So today is my nieces 2nd birthday. I can't believe Gabrielle is 2 already. It's insanity I really do feel like it was like yesterday when she was born! So weird. I called her to wish her a happy birthday and she got on the phone and said "Happy Birthday" hahahah she thinks shes wishing everyone else a happy birthday ahahha <33

Hmm I got a $200 cell phone bill yesterday. Went over my minutes. Oopsy daisy. =\ My dad was really really pissed off. Whatever I'll just not use that many minutes anymore I suppose hahaha.

So I went to the battle of the bands last night. It sucked. The only band I watched was Drawn in the Sky. I spent the rest of the time outside basically. I made new friends hahaha. I mostly hungout with some of the guys who ran the show which was cool.

I went outside to the back at like 7 and there were so many kids drinking and acting like assholes already. Half those kids were just there to drink they didn't even wanna see any of the bands. And the girls were fucking sluts. Fat sluts that think there hot. There is nothing worse then that. I wanted to punch all of them in the face.

Hmm and there were a bunch of skin heads there making fun of people. Umm don't they have anything else to do? I wouldn't have said anything but they came up to me with this little box for "kids with aids" and asked for money. I was like "no I don't have any money." and he was like "WHAT ARE YOU A JEW" and i'm like "and if I am?" and he told me then "I deserve to burn" so I yelled at him. ahahha. I told him like "shut the fuck up and get the fuck out of here you fucking assholes" he started yelling at me so I just turned around.
Everyone was like janine shut uppp! But whatever. What are they gonna do? Start beating me up when there was like 50 people out there and like half were guys? Whatever he was an asshole and he deserved to be told off. Fucking asshole.

Hmm so that was that really. It was a really really lame show. That place is so fucking small and the kids there were just horrible.
Lau came and picked me up around "10:10 excactly right on the dot" hahaha she drove me home because she's the best :) We always have good talks in the car so it's good and today she is taking me to see my grandparents yaaay I miss them<3

And I have no voice and I have to sing for nyssma in 2 hours. FUCK.


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*Every moment that I wake, I look back on yesterday.. [12 May 2004|08:29pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

Um ok. I'm really stressed out.
This sucks. I don't usually get stressed out for more than a 5 minute fit. But I've been stressed and it's only getting worse.

A.)I'm doing good in school but now we're reviewing and I'm finding I don't remember a goddamn thing from the begining of the year.

B.)My moods change like whoa and I feel like a weird fucking asshole.

The most importaint:
C.)My Grandpa is sick and my mom doesn't even know about it. I feel like the only fucking person in my family that even gives a shit. And this is the one that is eating away at me the most. I don't know, he's been in and out of the hospital lately and he sounds like fine and everything but, I don't know. I just don't have a good feeling about it. My mom doesn't talk to my grandparents anymore. (Long fucking story) And my dad doesn't really either. I feel so much weight on my shoulders because I feel like I have to take care of them. Which I do. And since my brother lives in Florida and can't do a god damn thing which he wouldn't anyway. I don't know what to do anymore.

I just want to scream.

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